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we’re only to tucson right now, but so far the road has been nice. the only thing thats been rough is the constant feeling that i have work to do nagging at the back of my mind the whole time. so i’m gunna sit here for as long as i can and try to blow thru a bunch of it. i really need to streamline my workflow and hone my post production skills. i gotta be doing something wrong when it takes me so long to get thru one assignment. i’m gunna start emailing some other photogs and do some research into how other people manage their work time. i got into the game without any experience, and without working with anyone else so i could watch and learn from their experience. i’m gunna try and find an opportunity to assist in someone else’s studio. i think it would really help, and it would definitely be a humbling experience. i could use some good humbling. if anyone reading hears of any such opportunities, lemme know.
so, back to the road. so far, the country seems like one big desert since we left. i’m not a big fan of the whole desert scene. a lot of mauve and way too much dry heat for my tastes. even in fall. but there is still beauty to be found. nicole was manning the g9 in the car so i wouldn’t have one hand on the wheel and the other on the camera. so far, the most enjoyable scenery was the windmills. looooove those things. something magestic about their sheer size. they’re like giant army of gatekeepers watching over everyone passing thru. right past the white giants the car started to shimmy a bit, so we pulled off at a 24hr service station… it didnt look abandoned from far away. i got it sorted out after we documented the occasion.
this is diggu’s new az friend, oliver. he lives in boxes of beer. i wish i was so lucky.
ok. my goals today. get at least 90% done with eve 6, touch on at least two other projects and take at least one portrait.
checking in
still in peoria, az with my my best frizzle dano. as soon as we got here we started drinking with dano. so, needless to say, i wasn’t able to do much of anything productive. wish i would have stopped drinking for a bit, gotten out my equipment to shoot a dano portrait, but time is too tight right now and we gotta head to tucson. no photos to post yet. i’ll try n gettem up tonight. toodles
to georgia n back
lifes been hectic since my first post. i’ve had a lot of work pouring in. which is good, but i guess i have mixed feelings about it right now. i have so much to work on personally, and within my art. so i want to put off the assignments sometimes so i can focus. but i have to pay the bills. i’ve commited to the lifestyle where i never know when the money might stop coming in. this is where i can learn sacrafice, priorities and ballance in my life. just cant let myself believe that i can’t handle all the work. thats when i get sluggish and mopey.
tomorrow i leave for 17 days with a few deadlines coming up fast. i’ve spent most of my time packing and running last minute errands and getting everything in order. and now, the night before, i’m finally getting to the packing. i told myself i’d have made it a lot further on all my assignments than i actually have by this point. just means i really have to dicipline myself in the next few days to not waste any of my downtime and get done what i need to.
ok, nicole n diggu are packing up a storm while i edit and type. gotta go help before i get in trouble. i’ll keep updating throughout our road trip.
fyi, here’s our list of destinations
peoria, az
tucson, az
austin, tx
dawsonville, ga
denver, co
yosemite, ca
san fran, ca
lotsa places to go, lotsa driving to do. i’m supposed to be shooting some bands along the way. i’m pretty stoked on that. i’ll post some of the shots if i do.
its a whole new game…
…i’ve been doin this whole photo thang full time for three years now. three years! and what do i have to show for it? a whole lotta debt, some good ol’ fashion depression and work that i’m simply not proud of. as i sit here trying to figure out where i went wrong, the only conclusion i can come to is i pretty much did it all wrong. my attitude, my work ethic, my pride, my workflow, business sense, all wrong. so whats left to do? i can put down the camera until i think i’m ‘ready’ to take it on an make a change, or i can decide that today is the day i change. and not just change a little, time to change the way i do everything. time to turn my life upside down and look at everything from a new point of view.
my super sexy girlfriend is sleeping in bed right now behind me. she goes to work as a cocktail waitress, shak’n her thang for drunk old dudes to make a buck, with no end in sight. thats not how we planned it. she’s supposed to be my partner in everything, especially in this business. but what can she do when i haven’t put together anything resembling a plan for how to accomplish that. and based on the quality of my work, i dont feel i have a portfolio or general style that i am proud of or will bring me the clientele i’m seeking. not to mention, i’m so uptight and not in the moment, not present and in my head so often that its really effecting my ability to build trust with my subjects and it shows thru the camera.
its gunna take hard work and massive amounts of discipline. its gunna take me shooting my cute little butt off. its gunna take a lot of introspection. and its gunna take time. but it starts right now with my decision not to be content and not to give up. time to build a new portfolio, new business, new moonie. its gunna be a process, and i’m gunna post my progress here. if i try to do it all on my own, i’ll just end up back in the same mess. hopefully i will have you all here to keep me on my toes and give me feedback on the new work.
thanks to all of you who have been there to encourage me. and thanks to a few other photogs out there that kept me inspired with your stories, and creative & life advice. wish i had the balls to take heed to it earlier. and thank you fabie. you’re the best parta me…
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